[She hears that tone, and she sees that face, and it makes that pain in her chest tighten just a bit more.
It's fine, everything's fine, it'll all be fine. That's the mantra she's been using to get through everything up to this point. It becomes harder to keep to with every trial that passes, but somehow she's holding onto it. For now.
"I'm scared of double-dying here, because it means either being killed by someone I've come to care for or being executed in a horrible way." It's fine.
"I really do like you, but if I tell you then that's just going to leave you with the pain when we end up separated at the end of all of this." Everything's fine.
"No matter how everything turns out, I'm still either going to stay here or end up dying within a few weeks of going back." It'll all be fine.
She bites down on her lip for a moment to steady herself. No crying here, there's nothing to cry about! It's all going to be just fine.
Everything's. Fine.
She manages to keep a smile on her face, thinking it won't betray the turmoil within her.]
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Date: 2023-03-05 02:44 pm (UTC)It's fine, everything's fine, it'll all be fine. That's the mantra she's been using to get through everything up to this point. It becomes harder to keep to with every trial that passes, but somehow she's holding onto it. For now.
"I'm scared of double-dying here, because it means either being killed by someone I've come to care for or being executed in a horrible way." It's fine.
"I really do like you, but if I tell you then that's just going to leave you with the pain when we end up separated at the end of all of this." Everything's fine.
"No matter how everything turns out, I'm still either going to stay here or end up dying within a few weeks of going back." It'll all be fine.
She bites down on her lip for a moment to steady herself. No crying here, there's nothing to cry about! It's all going to be just fine.
Everything's. Fine.
She manages to keep a smile on her face, thinking it won't betray the turmoil within her.]
It's okay, I'm fine. See?